He now understands that he was wrong to get out Shanna Makler, his ally who even used the Veto to save her the week before, and now he is in his own best interests. He admits to having been completely deceived by Miesha TATE and Todrick HALE.
“I believe we really made an enormous mistake,” Carson told Us Weekly on Friday, February 18th. “I owe her so much a huge apology. That’s the thing that has made me feel so terrible because we should not have listened to the people I believed we could trust but she.”
Reality star Todrick believed that their “long-standing relationship” from their time on Ru Paul’s Drag Race was a sign of trust and support.
He tells us that he thought “Well, this guy wouldn’t be misleading me so dramatically.” “I swear [Cynthia Bailey ] had the best intentions, and we believed we had someone who was playing both ends. We didn’t realize was. Shanna is awful and I must send Shanna the greatest apology I have ever received. That was the one thing that I didn’t want to do. I did something icky.”
Carson continues to apologize for his actions in the hope that Shanna and he can become friends.
Carson would make any other changes to his game. What factors will impact his final night vote? Continue reading to see the rest of our interview
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Carson Kressley After going in, and then doing it, I was like “I’ll just be fine.” Then they pull you out, and you speak to a psychologist. I was like “I’m fine.” But then you realize that you have over 1200 emails and so much to do on social media. It’s overwhelming, because you’ve been without a phone and any contact other than cast members for a month. It’s quite an experience. Then again, it’s not like you are sleeping. I think I will go outside today to see the sun for my first time.
Us – What is the most surprising thing that you have learned since moving out of the house?
CK I discovered so many things about people I trusted and things I believed were happening that weren’t. When you meet Julie [Chen Moonves], the first thing you notice is that she asks me “Now about Shanna. Was you Big Brothers ?”. I am like, “Now about Shanna. Was that you Big Sistered ?”. This is what made me so sorry. We should have listened and not trusted people, which I should have known better.
Us: Miesha took Cynthia and you up during her HOH. Shanna saved you with the Veto. But Miesha, Todrick and Shanna convinced you to get rid of her. Are they so good or are you just that stupid?
CK They were great. Todrick has been a friend for many years and I have worked with him on shows such as Drag Race. I thought that this guy wouldn’t be misleading me so dramatically.” But they did it with such finesse and convincing me and Cynthia. If I was Cynthia, I would be looking at Cynthia and wondering if they were lying. But they got us both. We had the best intentions, but we believed we were playing both sides. We should trust those we know, rather than someone who plays both sides. We didn’t realize that this was a largely made-up story. Shanna is in my thoughts and I must send her the most sincere apology. It was the only thing that I didn’t want to do. And I did something icky.
Us: She was quite often ostracized and treated almost as if she was part of a mob mentality. Comments were made about her appearance. Are you able to look back and not cringe at that?
CK I don’t think I said anything about her, and I know that I didn’t mention anything about her appearance. Even though she had passed, it still hurt. It was a sad thing that I didn’t want to be part of the chatter when it started.
The: I am assuming that you may change some things if your HOH week could be redone?
CK: Yeah. We should have stuck with our plan to get rid Miesha. Todd [Bridges], Lamar appeared to be so ensconced in an alliance with Miesha. Todrick was attached to her from the beginning. I didn’t know that we could free her at that time if we had enough votes. It was horrible. I am sorry to her a million times. Although I haven’t had the chance to watch all of it, people and friends who know me well have said that they have been obsessed with it and have watched the live feeds. I feel awful and Shanna must feel the worst. I need to apologize to Shanna because this should never have happened.
Our: What was your relationship before Todrick? Did it ever feel friendly? Did you feel nervous or happy when you first saw him in your home?
CK We have a wonderful relationship and he has also been a guest judge on the show. It has always been very cordial, and I was actually quite excited. I pulled him aside right away and said, “We should all look out for one another just like a friend from outside.” I was shocked at his abrupt departure from our alliance and was like, “Oh, okay.” He probably has a reason. He wasn’t comfortable with Teddi (Mellencamp). I’ll be honest, this is a difficult game. His adherence to Miesha was a red flag. It was like he thought she was his ride or die. I understood that. Cynthia was my ride, or die. Although you can get along with certain people, I didn’t know that he would attempt to mislead me so badly. I’m just, I’m naive. It’s just gameplay. However, I have a long-standing relationship with him so I wasn’t surprised he would go that far.
Us: Cynthia and I had a wonderful relationship. What other people do you think you will keep in touch with outside of the house?
CK I love Lamar (Odom). He’s so wonderful. Todd Bridges was a fascinating participant because he was under the radar of most of the competitors. Cynthia would say to me, “I don’t think he wants or feels good enough here.” Then, he was like a Phoenix rising. He was almost as tall as me by the time he completed the hanging on the walls challenge. I thought, “Todd Bridges is hanging from the wall?” Isn’t it amazing that he could have a bionic shoulder! He was quite surprising but I liked him. It is possible that we could work things out with Shanna. I am sure she will hate me for life. Is there anyone else? Oh, and Teddi. I adore Teddi. Chris Kattan is my hero.
Us Chris Kattan suggested to me that and might do a cooking show together…
CK I’ll cook, and he can eat in his underwear.
Us: While you did some lobbying to stay, there were moments when it felt like your efforts were not enough. Are you satisfied with the work you did? Did you do more?
CK I doubt it. Todrick and Miesha were the ones in control, so we had to appeal to them. We made a strong case. Again, I believed I had an agreement with Todrick in which we would each have the other’s back as a gentlemanly chivalrous agreement. I invoked that and said, “Hey! Remember, we agreed at the beginning to look out for one another.” It wasn’t. Miesha was our first thought. He said, “You want to play this game with integrity,” which he repeated about 10,000 times. These two people are examples of integrity. We invite you to play with us. They know what they’re going to get.” I was just a huge threat. I still don’t get it. I won only two things, and I was not very good at any of them. That was the one I did kill. However, I think there are far more dangerous people than me.
Our: People vote on different factors. People will sometimes vote for people they like, even if you are very popular. How will you vote?
CK I have to watch the show. However, I would be more harsh on someone who was really shady and had bad intentions all the time and wasn’t transparent about it. Miesha was, at times, a bit too transparent for my liking. She says, “You are the greatest threat I have.”
We: You’ve seen a lot of reality television. Are there any regrets over playing Big Brother?
CK Reality TV is what I do. This is what I do. This is what I do, and I have been doing it for over 20 years. It’s not something I regret. I had a lot fun and met some incredible people. Cynthia Bailey is an incredible person who will be my friend for life. It is a gift. The only thing I regret is not being more smart and getting Shanna out when I shouldn’t have. That was entirely my fault.
It hurts and I am trying to find a way to apologize. I will apologize a thousand more times.
